I’ve always been the person to be there for anyone who needed a shoulder to cry on, vent to when they needed venting, help them through thier times of need but it’s not the same when the tables are turned. Nobody is there for me. I either get lectured, put down even more or have been told I’m overreacting. I’m tired of it. I have so much going on in my life right now and so much to think about that its eating at me from the inside, out. I’ve distanced myself from so many people because I don’t trust anyone anymore. Excluding one person. Only because I’ve been hurt so many times before from people I thought wouldn’t hurt me. With so much on my plate right now, I can’t deal with it. So that’s why I’ll keep everything in and keep a smile on my face like I’m happy. I’m pretty good at that.